2024: week 32.

monday, august 5.

over the weekend, my friend sj and i were chatting about the israelites in the wilderness and how they didn’t believe god and wandered for 40 years. i used to think about it like they could’ve avoided all that time, but i heard someone speak on how the israelites who were brought out of egypt had a slavery mentality, and they couldn’t receive the promised land like that.

so part of me wonders, could they have actually avoided that time? i don’t know. but i think sometimes transitioning out of one thing and into another just takes time.

and then i woke up monday morning and this was the first thing i saw online. i don’t think i’ve ever thought about how joshua also waited. and he did believe god. the israelites weren’t ready to receive the land, and maybe joshua wasn’t ready to lead them either.

tuesday, august 6.

i recently discovered (entirely by accident) that the fray has new music. apparently they’ve been active on social media this whole year, and i haven’t been paying attention. a+ fan over here.

but for real, i don’t know that words can adequately express how much i loved this band. like i would invite my friends over to my house when i was in high school and make them listen to this cd when we hung out. i remember buying this album for my friends for their birthdays. when they toured, i found a way to go see them. they weren’t the first band i loved (because, bsb and nsync), but they’re the reason i love music.

anyway, they re-released their first two albums on vinyl. and as i was explaining my excitement to my mom on the phone one day, she ordered this one for me while i was still gushing about it. no one knows this because why would they — but when i’m driving to and from charlotte and i get really bored or tired in the car, this how to save a life album is the one i put on. i still love it so much.

wednesday, august 7.

this wednesday was prayer night, and what i need you to know is that sometimes you just need to get yourself into a place where there is an atmosphere of faith, even if all you do is go and sit in the chair with your head in your hands. sometimes all you can do is show up and borrow other people’s faith, and that’s enough.

thursday, august 8.

there is so much i could say about this day, but instead here is a photo of my niece, pretending to talk on the phone to me, taken while i was actually on the phone, facetiming with my sister, in real life.

friday, august 9.

i worked, made some phone calls, and probably went to bed early? honestly, i don’t really remember but i’m usually tired by the end of the week and fridays are usually pretty chill.

saturday, august 10.

the past couple saturdays have had this rhythm of a slow morning, reading my bible and journaling, chatting with my mom on the phone, and then writing. this saturday was no different.

sunday, august 11.

i served in the morning, took a nap when i got home, did some prep for my week, and then spent more time writing.